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salam alaik heh .. meet with u guys again =) There'r so many battle in our life! exm, love, politic and so on lah . all of that are battle but just in different form and flavour. uh?? rite? but foe me, (when i realized after finished read VERSUS by Hlovate), the most hardest battle is when we are against ourselves at some point. Yeah.

 At point, we have to roll with our own feelings. Choatic! From VERSUS, we could feel that it was quite painful to left everything behind even all those things were already keep stored well in our own blood, soul and even bones!! it's hard lah! the book was about " CHANGE" !! lORH.. cam barack obama la plak. heh change ourselves about 180 degree. From to (that's me), from the red jumpsuit apparatus and hey monday to UNIC, from indie to nasyid, From BEAST TO nasyid!!! Well, it was really hard!

BUT FOR my case! i already raised by my parents with implemented strictly in my home for me and the rest of my 6 adeks! heh. I already be trained to wear tdg labuh bk kta chekgu ak dlu tudung parachute hahah.. since i went to PASTI . Eventually, i feel used to wear those tdg. I wear it as i already used to be with it and sadly ak lom rse lg pki sebab hakiki because of Allah!! Somehow, i tried to wear tdg bwl but for me it was still labuh even i knew that my parents did not like it! They seemed do not pleased wif those tdg.

That was dilemma on myself. I was interposed between 'what i want' and 'what they order'!! Even now i got confused actually what meant by 'what i want'. got it?? look! who want to give me free of charge consultation? before i read versus, im quite determined that i have to prove to them that Islam just asked women to cover all of their aurat well.

So, it was up to us to wear tdg labuh or not as long as it cover our chest and so on.... But, it just was 'was'!! My past opinion changed until i read this statement. Al-Baqarah ayat 208 We could roughly translated that Allah asked us to fully embrace the ISLAM. nOT really we are only have to ensure perform the solat. it's more than that! The book really realized how much Islam values are still existed in ourselves... is that just enough with solat??? right? even certain people or even me, fail to perform the solat. we dun give the rights to Allah as His servants. even Allah give us everything as Allah knows that we got nothing, we are just His servants! right

People always debate about human rights, environments rights and so many rights lah... but majority of us forget about Allah's right!! right? heh doe... so many rights lah. bikin pening lalat je. huuu. the battle is just not over! my battle to be specified. i feel very torn apart aside when i was chosen to be one of the BADAR members. BADAR is a islamic board at my former school. badan dakwah dan rohani. I was the lajnah surau before this.

Could you guys imagine how a girl (who bajet tdg labuh but inside her souls ... ntahpape lagi) and become dai'ie? memang haru!! i got to roll with my owm feelings. Sometimes,, ak rse cm munafik je.. hailohh... tu yg benar sebnrnya. But some time, i could feel very enthusiastic to dakwah. And it's really reached at peak, when i becamed naqibah for my usrah. when i was in form4.

 form4 year is the year that i feel the islam, year that i love islam at all my heart, year that i started to learn islam, also the year of dakwah!! look! i have to struggle for my pengislahan diri and simultenously, to people. to be specified, my friends and those juniors.. bknnye ak dak sekolah ag pn.... sekolah ak dlu sblom msok KUPSIS cm 2x5 je ngan henry gurney. satu league la tu.. cme bwh cket je dri henry gurney. heh.. sempat lg. ntah la on what i concluded here.

But one for sure, i have my own goals!! perfection to be a Muslimah is quite imposibble but endeavours to be a better mUslimah tu yg matters!! heh rightio?? my ummi also talked to me ' why don't we put a proper standar, an indicators line in our manners - she meant cara bertudung la tu. reverse-pschocology kt ak la tuu... heh . speechless! ummi kalo ckp mengalahkan aristotle ngn socrates. chekgu la katakan almost 25 years. tabik spring abhis la n plus spring tu pnye stiffness hehhe..

May Allah blessed her. whatever it is, i thankful to Allah. Alhamdulillah. He gave His Hidayah to me b4 i die! nothings late b4 die! but it's better to never late. somethings is better than nothing. tu yg ak pgg. i was quite interested with this quoate fron VERSUS.... perfection is imposibble as there are always room for improvement. waalaikumussalam =)

07012012 : 4.00PM


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Assalamualaikum wbth :)

Duduk sembang sekali dengan umi dan adik-adik, sangatla menenangkan jiwa
and plus, laugh therapy.

"la, ni pasai apa mulut hang ni adik"
"hmmm dia ni, dok buat lompat bintang, pokkkk tangan kanan kawan dia kena"
"ha, hat tu farid la"
"ada kawan saya berak dalam kelas", adik.
"macam ni...dalam kelas semua kata ASSALAMUALAIKUM WARAHMATULLAHIWABAWAROKATUH...pastu dia berak", adik.
aku, yah, kakcik, ummi "KWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA"
"tu la, ada budak tu jalan2,, pok22 keluaq sesuatu dari kaki seluaq" , yah.
"you shouldn't really describe that", ummi.
"ha, hat dok gelak tu pi smayang", abah.......
*effect bunyi cengkerik*

so guys, spends your moments and cherish it. We never know when it's will come again to enjoy those moments. Family are gifts from Allah and appreciate it. Even we will talk about berak sometimes.. hahaha

Jazakillah doe!!

Assalamualaikum wbth...

Alhamdulillah. Highly praised to Allah. May all of us are always in Allah's barakah and rahmah. Officially, I already are in semester 2 of Foundation in Medical Studies. This time, having a good and meaningful relationship with A&P (anatomy and physiology) and not forgetten too, Basic Human Behaviour and Pyschology as well. 

boring gila. hek eleh...  
*betulkan spec*
Just nak habaq pasal seorang hamba Allah yang Allah bagi chance dekat aku untuk rasa kasih-sayang dia untuk Dia jugak akhirnya. Aiseh
Kepada dia yang,
mengajar aku untuk menerima semua orang tanpa sebarang buruk sangka
mendidik aku bahawa Tuhan itu Maha Pengampun dan everyone deserves it and tak dak sapa pun ada tiket untuk halang anybody from feel it,
menyemai dalam hati yang hidup ini solely untuk Dia,
yang ajaq aku untuk berterima kasih seikhlas-ikhlas kepada mereka yang berhak,
and thanks to remind me about Allah as always,
dan tak semua yang kau ajarkan,
mampu ku practise d…